It's been a long while. Last time I decided to store all my work away because I think it was one of the worst depression and anxiety crap I'd ever dealt with. I had to store everything away so I wouldn't come back to my deviant art page which gave me anxiety. Since then I had been on a recovering process (like for reals this time). I was in so much denial during that time but now I am ready to embrace all the ugly and beautiful things in my life.
This morning an old friend from more than half a decade ago sent me a link of the naruto's official japanese site. She said "MEMORIES!" and that was all. That was when I got into naruto and art. I remember when I first met her and a lot of amazing artist friends during that year of my life. I think I was about 15 year old. It was one of the most amazing time of my life. Our love for naruto kind of brought us together.
We were like baby birds learning how to fly (how to art) and we had so much fun. Trials, errors, falling on our faces, crying and succeeding. Believing in this and not giving up on this journey. We all hope that one day we can make a living being an artist. In that circle of friends we all end up attending art colleges and etc. Sadly we grew apart but are all still doing what we love.
Of course I had my huge share of struggles. Trying to figure out who I am as an artist and trying to make everything work. It hurt a lot, it was a not good kind of hurt. I remember thinking did I just waste almost half of my life doing something that might not work out or I might not even love anymore? Yeah. It's funny how when you are young you are fearless and dancing like the night never ends. As I got older I am constantly asking myself "Am I out of the woods yet? Am I in the clear yet?" (referencing to Taylor's song because that's exactly how I feel right now.)
My childhood was all about dreaming big. Then it was about starting that official journey of being an artist. A dream happening too fast and it crash a burn into a total nightmare. Now I am trying to slowly pick up those pieces.
Naruto definitely played a huge role in my life. It took me to a path that I would of never taken myself. A dangerous and exciting one. It was worth it. It shaped a lot of who I am.
With that said I decided to restore my gallery so we can all reminisce this past memories together.
Thank you Naruto and Goodbye.